I was excited about a recent achievement and quickly started typing an e-mail and an SMS, only to find one address and phone number short. Sis does something smart, and I look for company to make fun of her and deflate her, but I don't find you around. I do something super-silly and don't know how to get out of it gracefully, I look around for you to laugh at me non-stop so I'll feel better, but I hear nothing.
There are umpteen stupid movies releasing, but I don't have you to discuss them with and make fun of you when you watch them. I rarely login to Facebook as I don't see your friends pulling your leg for me to pitch in and make it worse for you.
I don't get those silly messages and phone calls asking me to check your callback tune and report to you because someone is playing a prank on you. I don't get those calls late in the evening asking me to inform Mom about you not coming home. I don't get to have those long, meaningless conversations about what your cook made for breakfast and how you shopped for kitchen supplies.
I don't have someone to spoil my Sunday siesta by yelling in my ear. I don't have someone to fight for space on the divan. I don't have the same enthusiasm in exaggerating what I do at work and showing off any more.
It's been 4 months now, we've changed, our lives have changed. But our thoughts didn't, our love for you didn't. Rest in peace, and continue to be around.
There are umpteen stupid movies releasing, but I don't have you to discuss them with and make fun of you when you watch them. I rarely login to Facebook as I don't see your friends pulling your leg for me to pitch in and make it worse for you.
I don't get those silly messages and phone calls asking me to check your callback tune and report to you because someone is playing a prank on you. I don't get those calls late in the evening asking me to inform Mom about you not coming home. I don't get to have those long, meaningless conversations about what your cook made for breakfast and how you shopped for kitchen supplies.
I don't have someone to spoil my Sunday siesta by yelling in my ear. I don't have someone to fight for space on the divan. I don't have the same enthusiasm in exaggerating what I do at work and showing off any more.
It's been 4 months now, we've changed, our lives have changed. But our thoughts didn't, our love for you didn't. Rest in peace, and continue to be around.
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Dear Sangeetha, there are no words which can pacify your loss. May God give you and your family all the strength to cope up with his loss.
Thank you! Yes, nothing can pacify us and let us deal with it. But friends and people's thoughts and prayers help in making us feel better.
Nothing can compensate the loss of a family member. I have been reading your posts, and I can feel the pain. I can only say that time would heal the pain, though the wound, the void might remain forever. We only would have to learn to cope and live with it, which Im sure you understand as well.
Take care !
who can tell that beneath all that bravado there is such grieving for a loss that can never be made better. feel well.
@Snehith Yes, time will heal, but nothing can fill the void. Trying my best to act normal and get on with life, but can't help it in moments when the emptiness stares into my face.
@Arundati, Thanks! Gotta be brave for my parents, if not anything/anyone else.
*hug*
Thanks, Radhika.
Ouch! I am very sorry to know about the loss. A sister is our first and forever friend...we are 3 sisters and I know how beautiful the relationship is !
May her soul rest in peace...Im sure you are taking good care of your parents !
Haritha
@Haritha, It's my brother. Yeah, a beautiful relationship, nothing can replace that.
I just wanted to tell you that - accept that the void would never be filled. A hole has been punched in the air around you where your loved one was.
You need to live with it. I totally completely understand everything you wrote here. I lost my dad more than two years ago.. and trust me, even after all this while... nothing is the same.
I haven't said anything to help you, just wanted to let you know you are not alone. Ofcourse this doesn't help when you are missing him, but hope its makes it easier to get by.
*Hug and a small chirping bird of hope*
P.S.: You don't know me and I don't know how landed on your blog and I have no idea why I just said all that. Some of your words just said what I didn't maybe.
@The Wanderer, Thanks for dropping by and sharing your thoughts. You're right, all we can do is accept the loss and move on. We're all trying to make peace with it, and almost getting there.
The loss will always be felt, but at least we need to accept it can't be replaced or remedied and move on.
Sorry about your Dad. I know what you mean, lives change immensely after such a loss.
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